When I started my journey of 365to50 in September, I thought it would be a challenge, but one that I could (and would) overcome. I knew that training for the triathlon would difficult, but I liked riding my bike and getting up early to swim. I knew that to make progress on writing my book, I would have to carve out and protect time to write. I was inspired and ready to pour myself into three different books; one would surely be easy! There was never a doubt that if I wanted to lose weight and be healthier, I would have to change my eating habits and I was ready to do that also. To really deepen my relationship with God, I would have to spend time in prayer and other disciplines that would lead to and increase intimacy with God. When I started, there was no doubt that I could accomplish any of these goals—simply because I wanted to.
But what happens when you no longer have the “want to?”
What happens when you would rather watch TV than train on your bike, or work on your first book? What happens when work, holiday parties, and family functions crowd your schedule and sap your energy? What happens when the days get long, and those long days slowly snowball into a long week? When the momentum of “nothing” and comfort begins to replace the momentum of disclipined routine and accomplishment?
The answer is obvious: when you lose the “want to,” you are in danger of getting off track. Well, I have been off track for about 60 days, or since my last triathlon. I can’t tell you exactly how or why I lost it, but thankfully I have a long-term goal, and I have plenty of time to get back on track again and still reach my goals. I made the promise that when I started this, I would be real with my readers and hold nothing back.
I stopped when I no longer “wanted to,” and I let my feelings determine my actions instead of letting my actions determine my feelings.
I am ready to start again, and as of today I am moving toward my three goals of:
- Writing my first book.
- Losing weight and getting healthier.
- Growing in deeper friendship and intimacy with God.
Looking at my roadmap:
For My Weight: I am currently at 280lbs which means that I have gained some weight back. But if I follow a healthy weight loss plan with exercise, and lose just 2 lbs per week, I will have lost over 70lbs by my 50th birthday. That would mean that I could weigh 210 lbs on my fiftieth birthday—September 5th, 2013. I can do that.
For My Book: I am currently working to decide which book I should write: the book about being an overcomer, which I have been working on for a little while, or the fictional book which God gave me years ago. It is a story based on two brothers who never knew each other until a tragic accident brings them together. I know God has called me to write the book on being an overcomer, but I also know that this fictional story of faith and forgiveness is going to be great. I am in love with storytelling, and this book brings me to tears, goose bumps and deep thoughts all at the same time. My goal is to make a decision on which book to write by the 21st of January.
For My Relationship with God: I need to develop a set time for prayer and devotion. I always do better when I have a set time for my prayer with God. Starting this week, I have three mornings blocked out where I will spend very dedicated time with God. While I try to spend a daily time talking to God and I am in His word throughout the week, both at home and at work, I need at least three days a week of “soaking time” where I am listening to the voice of God and responding to Him in like manner.
To help me get back on track I am going to start doing the following.
- Begin using my Franklin Planner to schedule my daily activities.
- Sunday will be “planning day”: the day that I pencil in my week.
- Commit to writing at least three days a week.
- Exercising at least three days a week.
- Spending at least three days a week in prayer.